Thursday, March 31, 2011

Always by Saliva

I miss you, douche bag. :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Fucking Perfect

1. She's so gorgeous.
2. This song is so amazing
3. The video is so sad
4. I love you all.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Sans repère - French Rap Song with English Subtitles

More French rap. Because I've become slightly addicted.
It's kind of funny, I hate the French language and I hate rap but put together it's jsut so beautiful.

I'm done posting for today, though. Promise :)

Le Meme Sang - French Rap Subtitled in English

It kind of reminds me of my brother....

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I forgive you.

And up in flames it goes. So You and all the world can see. Can watch. Can hate.

I don't care. I'll be okay after I tell you. I show you. I forgive you.

Because I stopped being able to cry. And I did I did I did! I'm so happy! I was scared I'd never be able to again but twice in the past week I have. Not for long, as something has always happened to make it go away, but enough that I don't feel like I'm going to explode anymore.

That's always good.

I think.


Thursday, March 10, 2011

Songs for my loves

To those who are gone:

To those who are going:

To those I hate:

To those I love:

To those I need:

To you, and you know who you are:

Remember when you posted this song about me? 'Tis mutual. But now I bet you only hate me without the love.

To everyone:

But not really. I just like that song.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

This is so cool!

I'm not the astronomy geek in my family, that's my dad and my sister. Even so, this video blew my mind.

There was NO CGI or 3D models involved. this is made entirely of single pictures taken from Casini, the satelite orbiting Saturn. The speed of the satelite and the speed of Saturn are so different that when you string them together it looks like a video.

Check it out

Isn't that AMAZING? It's kind of mind blowing.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Burnt letters

Today in math class I wrote a note to Alec. I don't know why. I'm going to burn it when I get home. I miss him so much. I barely new him. Why am I all messed up about this? What's wrong with me?

I'm just screwed up. Oh well.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Sonata Arctica - No Dream Can Heal A Broken Heart [HQ] + lyrics

My dream, it seems, fails to see the mornings
My one and only aim
I hear you breathe, I'm not alone in the darkness
I feel something on my lips I should not

One, too many poisoned kisses
And I'm drowning in your deepest sea
I found my destiny, something I'm here for
I'm knockin' on my heaven's door

One day we will run out of tomorrows
And yesterday's become the stuff our dreams are made of

Until today, I lived in the shadow world
Now heart is speaking, brain's defeated
Independent thought deleted

One too many poisoned kisses
And I'm drowning in your deepest sea
I found my destiny, something I'm here for
I'm knockin' on my heaven's door

And the map to find my sleepin wishes
Is hidden where I cannot see
When I'm awake, I need your poison kisses
To fall back in a living dream...

Johanna Kurkela:

"Why do you fear to long for my love, please be strong.
If your heart can hear a song, you can't go wrong...
So repose your trust in me, save this love, live and see
If the life beyond this dream is what you seek..."

"Fill your deepest wishes,
Come take my poison kisses
Life is too short, this golden hour lasts for a lifetime..."

Give me your poison kiss,
Now, come night, I need my sleeping wish
Help me dream again, somehow kiss me now

With your poisoned lips
Oh, come night, I want my missing wish
Help me get one kiss, somehow
Hold me now

No dream can heal a broken heart
When we're apart...

...On the sea of wishes
My dream that no one misses
Tears me apart, always somehow


Friday, March 4, 2011


Is it.
Is all.
Is everything.
Is nothing.

I may be insane, but so what? I am just so tired of everyone. Everyone, everything, everywhere.... Make it stop.

Please make my confusion go away.
Please just fucking leave me alone.