Maybe....

Maybe I should disappear for forever. Maybe I should run away and start completely new. Maybe I should stop trying to find new ways of destroying myself. Maybe I shouldn't close up. Maybe I should lose touch with everyone. Maybe I should fade into nothing. Maybe I should become just a memory. Maybe I should hide myself. Maybe I should protect everyone else from how hideous I am inside. Maybe I shouldn't fall when I know nobody will catch me. Maybe I shouldn't fall when I'm not willing to catch myself. Maybe I should give up on dreaming. Maybe I should just accept things for what they are. Maybe I should keep on living. Maybe I should keep this stupid smile plastered to my face so wide it destracts everyone from my tears. Maybe I should stop lying to myself. Maybe I should realize that nothing is ever worth it in the end. Maybe I should save myself from heartbreak. Maybe I should leave everything and everyone behind. Maybe I should give up completely. Maybe I like the sound of that. Maybe I hate the sound of that. Maybe I should organize my mind. Maybe I should listen to my heart and maybe I should listen to my mind and maybe, just maybe, I should shut of one or the other. Maybe I should ask for help. But I won't. I never will.

What happens when I try to sleep.

Once upon a time there was a young girl named cate. One night, cate couldn't sleep so she started counting sheep. However, she got distracted by how silly the sheep were, she she took them up into the mountains and lived with them. Then one day, a hungry wolf came along. He tried to eat one of the sheep, but cate caught him. She would have killed him, but she thought wolves were really cute, so she tamed him instead. He kept watch over cate and all her little sheep while they slept at night. Then, one day, an evil hunter came along! He wanted to kill the sheep and the wolves, but cate wouldn't ever let such things happen! She attacked the hunter and kicked his butt. Her and her sheep and her wolf lived happily, until a evil bear came along one day! They ran from it as fast as they could and hid in a cave until it left. Since then, they lived happily ever after!

I can't get on youtube, but the song for today is I'm still breathing by Katie Perry.

Yeah.
Good bye!
eat cake!
And fly!
ittyK

I have two songs for today.





not much to say, cuz my brain is dead. Umm... I'm excited for monday. afterschool that is. I didn;t end up blazing on friday, but that's okay. I had fun anyways. Elsa and the sexiest cutest lesbian EVER randomly visited today. It was really awkward. haha

yeah.
good bye!
eat cake
and fly
ittyK

Blah?

This is the opening for my least favorite Anime-only arc. But it's an amazing opening. I love Beat Crusaders. They're awesome. And silly. haha, the song today was gonna be Box full o' Honey by <3Duran Duran<3 but they had no good videos on youtube. SAD FACE! haha

Today after school I think imma go blaze with Bri and Sarahi and Sarahi's boyfriend, James. Shall be fun!

Any-who, dass ist it.
so eat cake.
and fly.
ittyK

Wanted

Sigh....
Life is so terrible. Even when it's amazing, it's terrible. but whatever, yeah? We're all gonna die sooner or later.
That sounded really suicidal right there, but I'm not. pinky promise.


Linkin Park-Waiting for the end.
'cuz it reminds me of someone. And the video is SO trippy!


:) 'cuz I'm fucking stubborn.

Yesterday Anton and Elsa and Liz and I hung out and had soooo much fun! I got a pair of those knee-high converse. SUPER CUTE! :D

Yeah.
eat cake!
and fly!
ittyK

par amour

Oh, this song is gorgeous. <3

fun stuff

That's the song for yesterday. It's got no real significance, except that I feel like being a bit of a bitch. Long story. Anyway, I went to Elsa's yesterday because she FINALLY got back from Brazil. I didn't post yesterday because I passed out as soon as I got home. At her house, though, there was Anton (yay!) and My sister (kinda awkward at times) and Elsa (of course) Fiona and Amanda. Amanda is like, the cutest, sexiest, most fuckable dyke I've EVER MET! I wanted to strip her down and... yeah right there but... I didn't. haha. Fiona seemed pretty nice and she was definitely someone I'd be able to get along with easily.


That's the song for today.

I hate being back at school. BLEH! I'm pretty much passed out right now and I don't want to go to either Spanish or Biology. Spanish 'cuz I didn't do the big assignment and Biology 'cuz I never wanna go there. It's the worst. haha. At least today has been pretty easy. I've been in Geography, English and Math so far and I got homework in all but I finished Geography and Math in class and English is really easy.

So that's possibly it? Oh yeah! I can't post at home 'cuz my father took away my computer privileges and I think he thinks he shut down my Facebook but no way in hell am I letting him do that again. So yeah. :)

Adios, to you!
eat cake
and fly
ittyK
:D!